Daemonicus – Scully's thoughts 
By: LiveInTheLight 
 
He was sat in the car staring at doggett like a cat would stare at a 
goldfish. I knew John was angry......irritated, i knew how much 
john wanted to kill him right now, drag him out of the car and beat 
him till he gave him all the answers. I also knew that this wouldn't 
happen in my pressance and john would remain ever the 
gentleman. 
 
Something had happened.......i'd fallen in love. It had been a while 
now, i tried to dismiss my feeling for just admiration and care but 
when he wasn't around i missed him, when he was near me i got 
butterflies and id hide my tell all eyes from his. I know this hurt 
him.....i know he took this as a gesture of untrust, and as awful as i 
am i let him think that. Anything to hide my lustful thoughts.  
 
A woman had just been murdered, as i approached him i saw the 
anger and hatred in his eyes, body and face. He was looking at the 
man in the car with such disgust. He wasn't the john i knew, if 
anything I'd say i was afraid to approach him....but i did anyway.  
 
He saw me and broke from his trance, he tried his best to hide his 
feelings for my sake. This guesture made my heart ache. I wanted 
to hold him, kiss him but i couldnt. I took his hand....his touch was 
tender, he squeezed ever so gently and looked into my eyes. Blue 
meets blue and for the first time i cant look away. 
 
God i love him, the only words i can manage are words of no 
importance, i just want him to know that im here. It hurts me that 
he doesnt seem to listen, his eyes keep wandering to the man in the 
car and when he departs from me i miss him terribly. 
 
I watch him leave......i feel foolish for letting my guard down for a 
minute, opening a window to my secret.......i felt more foolish 
however when he seemed not to notice......not one bit. I caught the 
man in the car smiling at me.......did he know?  
 
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