Revised: Her: Doggett POV
Author: Ali  < ScullyTiger51@hotmail.com >
Spoilers: Daemonicus and This Is Not Happening


My heart never beat so fast, anger never flowed through me like it did when 
I learned of my son's death- I never thought that I would feel so horrible 
again.  Then Scully wasn't at her car.  I was about to take my hands and 
ring his neck.  I would have if not for the gun shot- but that only made me 
feel light headed.

Joesph Kobold's right, I will never be able to have her.  I'm willing to 
accept that, at least I tell myself that.

Everything feels like a dream,  I'm running but not fast enough.  I see the 
crowd and a figure of a body on the floor.  I get a flashback of my son, a 
circle of colleagues- and Monica, monica- around my sons body.  Then I get 
the flashback of Mulders body.  The look of hope and fear in her blue eyes.  
They step aside and everything speeds back up, and my breath goes to normal 
once I see it's not her.  Her soft, pitiful voice rings out, and I smile 
inside.

My calmness disappears as I realize "games over."  I race back to the car 
only to find the shackles that bounded the Professor laying on the ground.

*~*~*~*~
Sometimes I hate life- more often than I like it.  I can't have her, and I 
want her.  Mulders' a lucky sonofabitch, and he leaves.  I don't care if 
Scully told him to leave.  With what I've read, heard, and seen about him 
he's never really listened before.  Now he has a son- he's a lucky bastard, 
he has no idea how lucky.

I'll make myself get over her.  Maybe it's just my confusion about what I've 
seen, maybe it's because we no the feeling of loosing someone close to us, 
maybe it's- whatever it is, I'll find it and get over her.

I leave Agent Scully and Monica in the class room and head up the stairs.  
I'm ridged and feel like I'll fall if someone walks by- I can make it.

End

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