TITLE: IT’S OVER! AUTHOR: Kay49x (Kay49x@aol.com) RAITING: PG / G SUMMARY: Doggetts ultimatum forces Scully to make a drastic choice……Her Head or Her Heart CATEGORY: DSR (Doggett and Scully Romance awwwww) DISCLAIMER: The Characters Doggett and Scully are not and never will be mine (unfortunately hehe) they belong to an absolute genius called Chris Carter and 1013 AUTHORS NOTES: Hmmmm! Doggetts hot Scullys hot for him whoop whoop! ONE WEEK EARLIER Scully was lead in the hospital bed, she heard footsteps, it had to be him. she thought to herself but deep down she was actually petrified at what he was going to say. It had been the 4th time she’d done this to him. She did feel guilty but she felt embarrassed too. It all started with a case skinner had given them. Huh! Some them! She didn’t even bother to tell Agent Doggett! She wanted to have another shot at trying to prove to herself that she could be another Mulder, that she could tackle anything single handedly, without his help. But as usual it failed and as usual she had woke up to find herself in another hospital bed with yet another bullet removed from her body. Oh the shame of it! But she was also pissed of at the fact that he would probably be laughing at her, and would probably carry on laughing at her as he visited. The door opened and she turned away from it. She heard him enter, close the door and sit beside her. He must of thought she was asleep as he took her hand and began to cry. She began to cry to, silently, with her body still and her eyes closed. She was shocked she wanted so bad to hate him, give herself that excuse to stop working with him but she couldn’t. She heard him sigh back a tear and her heart skipped a beat. She squeezed his hand and turned. “I’m…sorry” there she’d done it, she was defeated but was surprised by Doggett’s reaction to her words, he pulled away from her grasp and paced the room rubbing his face. Scully sat up confused. “Is that not what you came here for…an apology” “I’m sick to death of your apologies Dana…I’ve had enough” The way he used her first name in that tone shocked her, this wasn’t Doggett, or maybe it was…maybe she was seeing him…at last. “What do you mean”? “I mean its over…I’m through with it…I’m through with you…all these years I’ve stuck by you, seen you at your lowest but still…you refuse to trust me!” his tone was getting louder and angrier. “You can’t leave” all these years that’s exactly what she had wanted him to say, but now he was saying it she didn’t like it, it made her panic. “Aren’t you happy…isn’t that what you wanted…tell me damnit I’m feeling a little confused here!” Scully began to get out of bed; her wounded stomach twinged and she doubled over in pain “Jesus!” she put her hand to it, which was covered by Doggett’s, his tone and expression changed and she softened. “Don’t get up…you’ll hurt yourself” His hand followed her as she sat back down; he supported her back with his other arm. Dana noticed how close they were but she wasn’t uncomfortable. She actually liked the feel of another mans warmth on her. She hadn’t experienced that in a while and it made her knees weaken. They looked at each other for a minute. “Hold me John” she needn’t say more, he was already melting towards her again. He wrapped his arms around her keeping his distance from the wound and she did the same. Her fingers slowly carved over his broad shoulders as his warm embrace made her sleepy. Their hug seemed to last forever until it was he who broke away first, much to Scully’s disappointment. “The doctors said you can come out tomorrow” she nodded. “You’ll still be here right?” he didn’t reply, he tried his best to keep his cool even though it was killing him inside to see her this needy and vulnerable. “John…I’m sorry…I’ve had enough too…I’ve had enough of lying to you…I’m really gonna try…if you’d gimme a second chance” he still didn’t answer, he just looked at her for a while before heading out again. Scully was left reeling for his return. NEXT DAY 4:00pm As she sat in her car outside his house she was shocked at how nervous she was. Wasn’t she meant to be the tough one? That was it; she turned off the engine and went to his door. As she knocked she noticed the door was already open. She couldn’t hear anything so presumed he was out back. She made her way in and her heart sank. Box after box cluttered with his things, she hadn’t noticed how large and tastefully decorated his house actually was before, she slowly manoeuvred her way around each Box, ‘Books’, ‘clothes’, ‘kitchen stuff’, ‘Luke’…she opened the box, it was filled with photographs and toys. She wiped the forming tears from her eyes and turned to see Doggett heading down the stairs with another load. “You can have some of those for William if you’d like” “John…” “I don’t want your sympathy Dana…please” “I’m not here to give you sympathy…I’m here to talk you out of this” “Sorry…no can do” He sounded cold towards her, she could tell he’d prepared himself for anything she would try to soften him with… …they were even. “Where will you go?” “My mom’s cabin…I’ve transferred myself to Vancouver” “CANADA…why didn’t you inform me!” “Dana…not everything has to involve you…this was my decision…this is my life” She’d heard those words before…they had once come from her own mouth. She knew if she kept talking in this doctoring manner she’d have no chance. “FUCK IT JOHN! I don’t want you to go…I can’t do this alone!” “OH REALLY! My, my and I thought that was what you were good at…you know…doing it alone” “Am I the reason you’re leaving” he wouldn’t answer, she snatched the box he was holding away from him and threw it to the ground, Shocked by her outburst he grabbed her wrists and held her against the wall. “Don’t mess with my head Dana” “I’m not messing JOHN! I want a straight answer” he drew closer to her and locked his eyes onto hers “WELL?” she knew this tone wasn’t helping but she didn’t like feeling vulnerable, she didn’t like him winning. This was the second time they’d been this close…she felt scared but excited, for the first time she took in his overpowering form…oh how she wished he was closer. “Had enough already have you! Can’t hack it anymore DOGGETT! What is it that you’re afraid of?” her bitchy tone angered him more “I ain’t afraid of anything!” “Well if its not fear what is it…is it Mulder!” Doggett broke his gaze with her and took in a deep breath before returning “You’re leaving because your jealous …go on admit it …your jealous of Mulder” “MULDER’S DEAD” “WELL PITY YOU! Your jealous of a dead man, your jealous of what he had, your jealous of what he still has, what he has with me, trust! Protection!” “Oh yeah and you protected him real good didn’t you” she broke from his grasp and slapped him across the face. He didn’t look at her after that, he walked away and continued packing. “I’m sorry, that was out of order, you want some ice?” “I think I’ll live” “Look what I said about Mulder…I’m sorry…I didn’t mean it, I’m being selfish” “No Dana…your right” he laughed to himself “I’m jealous! I always have been and I always will be! I’m competing with a dead guy and I’m loosing…how embarrassing huh!” “I didn’t mean it” “Yes you did…I know you remember…you always speak the truth…that’s what I hate about you Dana” “Hate? So you hate me now!” “That’s not what I meant” “Well what did you mean coz like…if you hate me then I guess I’m just wasting my time” He faced her “It’s not what I mean…argh!…Well I might as well get it off my chest before I leave huh!” He began to move towards her again “I hate the way you never talk to me, I hate the way you never listen, I hate the way you’re so beautiful, I hate the way I can’t concentrate when your near me, I hate the way I make a fool of myself when I try to help you, I hate the way you don’t trust me, I hate the way you shut me out, I hate the way I feel about you, I hate the way I need you, I hate the way I can’t have you, but most of all I hate…” He had cornered her; she felt his hands on her face “I hate the way I don’t even hate you at all……………and THATS why I’m leaving” He dropped his hands and walked towards the door “You have no idea how vulnerable I feel right now…I’d appreciate it if you left” he opened the door and leant against it “I’m not leaving until you decide to stay” “Just go Dana” “No!” “Go!” “NO!” “FINE!” he slammed the door, Scully stood back against the wall in shock “YOU STAY AS LONG AS YOU WANT! I’ve made my mind up Dana…I’m leaving” He picked up another box only to have it snatched away again. She knew full well his mind was made up and that gutted her, for the second time she was loosing the only thing closest to her…and it was all her fault. Doggett saw her wiping her eyes “Don’t cry for me Dana!” “I’m not crying for you…I’m crying for me! I’ve lost!” “This isn’t a game…no winners, no losers” “Well I’m sorry but that’s exactly how my world feels right now! One huge board game…my independence being the prize! I tried my best to cheat…and now I’ve lost…I’ve lost the only thing that matters me” “What your independence?” “No” she moved towards him and took the box from him again, he didn’t protest, he let her turn him towards her and they looked at each other. “I’ve…I…” her eyes filled “I lost you” Doggett was taken back by her answer! He didn’t expect that at all, she moved away from him and sat on the couch carrying on with her words “I used you and then I pushed you away! I was so smug with myself the other day when you came to visit… I had all my answers ready…all my excuses! I was prepared for a lecture but I guess I wasn’t prepared enough…………I tried my best to keep my hard fatigue up but…when you told me you were leaving I guess my whole world shook” Doggett was now sat beside her “I guess it was the first time in years that you actually got to me…I’m sorry if that sounds stupid but…you really woke me up…made me realise that…I can’t do this alone John…I can’t” she turned to face him “I’ve been unattentive, proud, spoilt, stubborn and god knows…a lot more towards you but I guess the reason I acted that way was because…no matter what…I thought you’d always be there for me…I thought I’d always have SOMEONE to turn to” “Someone to use” “Yeah!…yeah Someone to use…God you have no idea how much I want to change John…how much I want to prove to you that I can be a better partner…a better friend…please…just give me another chance” “JUST TRUST ME DANA! That’s all I’m asking for…your trust, your honesty…your friendship! Can you sit here right now and tell me to my face that you trust me? Can you promise me you’ll stop lying to me, thinking you’re protecting yourself…Can you give me that much” She couldn’t answer; she was going over the possibilities in her head. Doggett had made up his own answer from her silence “Then I’m not staying” He stood up and she panicked, it was over…she knew it! She couldn’t do anything about it…was she ready to trust him?…her head was saying no whilst her heart was screaming YES! But why…… why was her head taking over? That’s the way it had always been…intelligence before indulgence, work before pleasure…learning before…love! The word hit her like a tidal wave, flooding her head with thoughts and questions and finally answers. All this time she’d shut him out…it was all about in denial, self awareness, protection and fear…fear to love someone again, fear to have someone so inside herself that it hurt. It wasn’t that she didn’t want to trust him…she’d forgotten how. Her head was to pre-occupied with work, independence, vulnerability and Mulder…she’d lost sight of what SHE wanted, what she needed. She lost sight of what she had and she had Doggett and she wasn’t going to give him up that easily! “Sit down John” “I have to pack” “Sit down” he did as he was told as always. He leant back and arched his arm over the head of the couch. “Look Dana, I think we better say our goodbyes” “I don’t think so” Doggett look at her bewildered, she slowly moved closer to him, draping her arm over his and her other across his chest. “Dana…” “Ssssh!” She placed her finger over his lips and replaced it with hers. Doggett was in shock, he dare not move. Her lips where hot, they warmed his entire body. She nuzzled her nose with his before catching his gaze again. “Don’t be tense John…I…………I trust you” the last three whispered words trembled through his soul; they kissed again but deeper, breathing each other in. Scully wrapped her arms around his neck drawing herself closer. “God…I want you so much” She didn’t care if that sounded desperate; for once she was expressing herself without any guilt or pressure. “Dana!” he tried to speak in between her furious kisses “DANA!” “What!” she restrained herself and watched Doggett rise from the couch “What’s the matter” “I don’t think this is such a good idea!” Scully looked at him bewildered “Are you kidding I think this is a great idea” She got up to meet his lips again but he pushed her away “Dana I’m serious…were both feeling very vulnerable at this moment and I don’t want to do something…we may regret” “You still don’t get it do you” “What…get what” Doggett looked at her puzzled, she wrapped her arms around him and rested her head on his heart “I know you feel the same way…your heart is beating so fast…John” she looked up at him “All those times I shut you out was because I reasoned with my head instead of listening to my heart, but for the first time today…I listened…I learned…I…I loved” His confused expression made her laugh, she banged her head against him and met his gaze again “I love you, ya big dope” she sexily nipped his chin with her teeth “And I know you love me…you don’t have to say it…I know” He took her hand “I love you” with that he led her up the stairs “Does this mean your staying” “Ahhh! What do you think!” “I think I win this game” “Yeah well let’s see who wins this one” he indicated the bed and closed the door behind them. THE END!