TITLE: She Will Be Loved
AUTHOUR: Kay49x (Who else)
SUMMARY: This song by maroon 5 is beautiful…the words tell a story of a 
broken woman who is loved in secret. It does remind me of the Scully/ 
Doggett scenario. 
I was moved when I wrote this…if you like reading fic where you fall in love 
with Doggett all over again then I suggest you read this. 
AUTHOURS NOTES: If you would like me to carry on this story…to see what 
happens next gimme feedback!
Kay49x@aol.com

‘I was screaming…my throat dry with strain. I told him I hated him, I told him 
he’d failed me…the one word I knew that would break his heart and crush his 
soul…fail! But it was selfish of me; cruel and cold of me…how could this man 
ever fail me? It was Mulder who had failed me I just didn’t want to admit 
it…I’d never wanted to admit it…he’d been failing me for years, leaving me a 
trail of dust as he ran ahead. Leaving me in the dark with no light and then 
shone Special Agent John Doggett. It was change and I’d never liked change 
and this is why I was yelling at him…he’d taught me to accept it, cherish it 
and…love it. I was just angry it was just anger that I couldn’t hold in any 
longer and unfortunately he was there on the receiving end of my full thrown 
war. I saw the expression on his face, the glistening of his eyes, the 
movement of his mouth but I didn’t want to hear him or see him I wanted to 
be in charge, I wanted to over power his broad form the way he usually 
towered over me. But o my blinding stupidity it was a tower of safety not 
ignorance, he was my protection my barrier from the world I was so 
frightened to see. His expression grew rough…I knew he’d had enough. He 
paced towards me and raised his hands, I thought he was going to hit me…I 
wouldn’t blame him…I would hit me…but he didn’t he…he….It was so 
unexpected, so breath taking…one minute we were ready to kill each other 
the next…it was so…how can I put this…beautiful…yeah it was beautiful. I 
feel myself trembling inside. Never in a million years would I expect a kiss 
from him to damage me so much. It was like we were ‘one’ for only a 
second…it was magical. I almost died when he forced my lips onto his…not 
in shock but tremendous release…I know it sounds weird but it was like all of 
a sudden my head, my body, my soul was clear…all emotions let go to run 
wild in this one, simple…kiss. But when he looked at me…when he pulled 
away and looked at me…he pierced my eyes with his electric shards of 
blue…in my eyes I felt fire but in his…I only saw ice…I saw a black sky, a 
cloud of grey, a tear drop! It fell like a water fall…down the rocky surface of 
his face…it doused the fire in my eyes…and the fool that I am…I walked 
away.’ 

‘She was arguing with me…I was arguing with her…she was screaming, 
taunting, criticising and for once I was having non of it! “Scully would you 
stop” I asked but she continued…she told me I was a failure…I was her 
failure…I didn’t think she meant it…she was vulnerable. Mulder had left 
again and I guess I was her anger release…her punch bag ‘not literally’ no 
she wouldn’t go that far but her words seemed to hit me like her fists would. I 
did want to cry…but I vowed from the beginning I would never…no…not in 
front of her. I was HER rock I was HER security…I was hers. Yeah damn it I 
was…she hated the sight of me I could tell but I loved this woman…I loved 
her so much. You know when you’re trying your hardest not to cry and you 
get this terrible ache in the back of your throat…well that’s what it feels 
like…every time I feel like telling her…every time I feel like screaming it to 
her… “I FUCKING LOVE YOU” I’d had enough…I just blew…I told her I’d 
give up…I’d walk away and leave her and never help or be there for her ever 
again…I don’t think she herd a single word I said…I couldn’t take the 
noise…I felt psychotic almost! I didn’t want to hurt her…I’d never hurt her…I 
just…kissed her! I don’t even know why I just did it…I held her face and I 
pulled her lips to mine and I kissed her. She didn’t seem shocked…she didn’t 
pull away or hit me or yell…no the yelling stopped…it was silent…nothing but 
her breath…she breathed me in like a temptress…she took my soul…my 
soul was all the only thing keeping my sanity but she took that from me as 
well. I pulled away in defeat…she had won…I was finished and I was dead. 
Her eyes looked alive with conquest whilst mine filled up with conquer…she 
had in deed conquered me and she new it…she walked away. And so did I.’



‘I find myself wanting more of him’

‘I find myself slipping from her’

‘I cant sleep…I lie awake remembering his kiss’

‘I don’t want to sleep…I don’t want to rise another day…to face her…it hurts 
to much’ 

‘I want to tell him how that kiss made me feel I want to tell him how sorry I 
am and what I said was all a face…it wasn’t me…I want to tell him he’s my 
world’

‘I don’t want her to know how that kiss made me feel, I don’t want her to 
know how vulnerable I am how weak I am in her presence…if she 
apologised I wouldn’t care…I cant have her…I don’t want to have her any 
more…the pain is gone all that was uncertain is now clear’

‘I’ll tell him tomorrow…I hold him, I’ll cry till I drown and I’ll kiss him and he’ll 
know… ‘I love you John’

‘Tomorrow I’ll go…with out a word…without the pity or heartache I’ll just 
go…she’ll survive she’s a survivor…I’m not going to return…I’ll leave her a 
note…the last words I can’t bare to breath to her… ‘I loved you Dana’



X To Be Continued………..Maybe! X


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