...To remember part 5. 
''Crossed Wires'' 
 
 
John Doggett: 
She walked into the room and took my breath away. That's when it hit me.  
It had happened. I had fallen 
 
This, it was love. 
 
I watched from my table as she made her way to the bar, her emerald, silk dress flowing 
heavenly, kissing the floor as she walked. 
She hadn't noticed me. But I'd noticed nobody was following her. 
 
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Dana Scully: 
"Dana, you came, my god you look beautiful!" 
I saw Monica's eyes dart behind me as I sat with her at the bar. 
 
"He's here?" 
 
I got goose pimples at her sympathetic nod. She put her hand over mine then called to the 
waiter for two martinis, doubles. 
 
I'd woken late last night and left Mulder sleeping. The guilt was unbearable and I needed 
to get out, I needed to speak to somebody. Girl to girl. 
 
Who other than the only girlfriend in this world I could trust, or that I had. 
I'd woken her too but she didn't seem to mind she never did. In some way I think she 
liked knowing that I had trust in her like this. We were complete opposites, her and I. She 
was an open book, I was the black drop-off in the ocean, yet she knew me. So well. 
Better than I knew myself.  
First I told her about our first night together. Then I told her how my feelings had 
developed, unbeknown. Then I told her about my feelings toward Mulder and how so 
surprisingly and so quickly they had dwindled. 
I poured my heart out. I cried my heart out and I begged for her to tell me what a terrible 
person I was. 
 
But of course she did not.  
 
And of course she said all the right things that made sense. 
 
Fact. 
I was not in love with Mulder any more. 
 
And I was in love with John Doggett. 
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"Is he alone?" 
 
She looked again, quickly, even though she already knew the answer. 
 
"No, he's with her. But he keeps looking at you…" 
 
I wanted to turn but I didn't. I wasn't ready to face him yet. 
 
"I didn't think you'd come" 
 
"I didn't want to. But I needed to. It hurt him that he woke up alone this 
morning…Mulder, I mean" 
 
Our drinks arrived and I gulped it down hard. Monica passed me hers then signalled for 
another. 
 
"I told him." 
 
She gulped hard 
 
"Not about John and I….How could I? It would kill him. Then he'd kill us both. No. I 
just told him….simply, I didn't love him any more or that I loved him but that I wasn't 
IN love with him…yada yada" 
 
"And…" 
 
"and…he packed his things and left" 
 
"Did he go back to his place?" 
 
"I don't know. Probably, who knows? I won't be hearing from him for a while. That's 
what he does. He disappears until it doesn't matter anymore" 
 
She was waiting for me to cry. I saw her handkerchief at the ready. I didn't cry. I drank. 
 
"Does she look happy? With him, do they look happy? Together? Over there?" 
 
She looked once more and her eyes fell. This time I couldn't help myself, I turned around 
and saw them. 
 
There they were. The fresh couple it seemed. I didn't look at John. I still couldn't. But in 
that moment I couldn't take my eyes off HER. Her smile was all it took. Her happy, 
bashful smile, shinning in his direction and her shy, sparkling eyes on his. I was running 
out of time. 
 
 
"He's only with her tonight because he thought you were bringing Mulder." I turned back 
to Monica  
 
"You know that, right?" 
 
Did I? No I didn't. I wanted that to be true, but finally looking at him and catching his 
warm face, smiling back at her it all seemed unlikely.  
 
"No, I think he's with her tonight because he wants to be. Monica I'm poison. Nothing 
about our affair has been easy on him. I know he once loved me and he knows I used that 
to get to him. He cant love me anymore for doing that. I think he's trying to configure a 
way out, a way to get away from me" 
 
Monica rolled her eyes and sighed in frustration.  
 
"You mean Emma? My god! You have no idea Dana! Do you? Of course he still loves 
you! He never stopped. He's a smart man and love makes men stupid! You really think 
he could have gone through with the affair of he wasn't in love with you?" 
 
"Monica, you've known about John and I for less that 24 hours. How can you assume 
such a thing like that!" 
 
"Because I know John Doggett! Ive been by his side for years and for the past few he's 
been loving someone deep inside and it sure as hell wasn't me! What? You don't think 
I've tried to seduce him over the years? That guy is a catch! But he's not about sex. He's 
just not that kind of guy. Have his heart and you have him. Simple…you've still got 
him." 
 
John Doggett: 
I watched the two of them sitting, chatting. I also kept checking the stairs. Was Mulder 
late? Why hadn't he entered yet? Was he coming at all? 
 
The thought that he wasn't, panicked me. Maybe she didn't ask him after all. Maybe she 
was waiting for me to ask her? What if I'd just blown everything?  
 
But then I thought. 
 
Blown what? Was I forgetting something. Dana and I were not Dana and I at all, there 
was no 'and'. 
So what if he wasn't here, she was still 'with' him. She was always going to be with him 
and that's when another thing occurred. What the hell was I doing? I took notice of the 
beautiful woman sat infront of me trying so hard for my attention. Someone who wasn't 
playing a game. Just playing girl likes boy and I realised I was ignoring her. My mind 
had been on Dana all night. All day. All week. Everyday of every month of every year 
and what was it getting me? Nothing but another broken heart. 
 
"John?" 
 
I snapped out of my thoughts 
 
"Are you ok?" 
 
"Yeah, I'm good, why?" 
 
"Well…you've just been sat there, staring at me for a whole silent 5 minutes. Do you 
regret coming with me tonight?" 
 
I saw the sudden sadness in her eyes and realised I was hurting her. And for what. I 
glanced quickly at Dana Scully. A pipe dream? Or was it. Danas eyes met mine for the 
first time tonight. That look…was it jealousy? Could Dana Scully really be jealous for 
me? Wouldn't that involve feeling, could it involve love. 
 
"John?" 
 
Emma wanted me but I couldn't tear my eyes away from Dana. Lost inside of hers, 
everytime.  
She was looking at me. Really looking at me and I at her. I was about to stand, march 
right over there, take her hand and take her away with me. Then…he walked in…and her 
eyes no longer held mine. 
 
Dana Scully: 
 
"Mulder? What are you doing here?" He took my hands and pulled me from the bar. I 
couldn't see John anymore.  
 
"I wanted to say sorry. For how I reacted today" 
 
"You don't have to be sorry for anything." I looked for him but nothing. 
 
"Dana. Listen to me. I love you. I always will but I've been so unfair to you. You were 
right. I don't deserve your love anymore, I know that" 
 
I tried to speak but he shushed me 
 
"You wouldn't have told me if you didn't mean it, now listen. I'm not going to beg for 
you to reconsider. I realise…I know…I can't give you want you want. I just can't do it. I 
need to be back out there, searching, discovering. It would honour me to have you at my 
side again but I know you wont do that anymore, you cannot and my conscience wouldn't 
let me let you." 
 
I shook my head. He spoke truth. 
 
"I'm going away for a while, just to get back into things. I've got a couple of contacts 
down in Oregon, I'm gonna head there and set up for a while. I've left the address, 
everything at your place so we can keep in touch. I don't want to lose you Dana, as a 
friend I mean. Ever. You're my best friend in the whole world. That, at least, is what I am 
glad will never change." 
 
"It wont" 
 
"Good." 
 
We looked at each other for a while, remembering what was. The good, the great and the 
bad times. But all good things come to an end and this was ours. 
 
"I love you Mulder" 
 
"I know" 
 
He kissed me for the last time. We didn't say the word goodbye. It didn't exist with us. 
Then he left 
 
John Doggett: 
 
I watched them talking, holding one another. I watched them smiling, lovingly. I read her 
eyes, I read her lips 'I love you Mulder'. That was it. Game over. I was done. 
 
"Emma, I'm sorry" 
 
"For what?" 
 
"For the way I'm treating you this evening, I'm sorry I'm just not myself tonight." 
 
"It's ok John, I think I understand. Its Agent Scully isn't it?"  
 
My heart sank. Could everyone else read me so damn well? Pathetic little me? 
 
"I've seen you looking over at her tonight and…well…I've noticed a bit of tension 
between you at work lately. Do you not get along? I've heard she can be pretty intense, I 
bet she's driving you up the wall huh? Have you had a disagreement?" 
 
Or maybe not…I laughed a little. To hide my sadness? Or maybe just my embarrassment.  
 
"Ah, yeah. Something like that" 
 
"Well, what better timing than over a few drinks to put the matter to bed? She's right 
over there. The guy she was talking too just left. Go, talk to her, make a mends. She is 
your partner, I'm sure she's wanting to do the same thing, she's been looking at you too 
but us women are very stubborn." 
 
She took my hand 
 
"then…maybe we can enjoy the rest of our night?" 
 
I smiled. She was right. Over and done with. It was now or never. 
 
"Your right. Tell you what. Give me five minutes with Dana and we'll get the hell outta 
here huh? You fancy a late dinner?" 
 
"Sounds fantastic" 
Dana Scully:  
 
I sat back down with Monica. 
 
"Ok, It looks like he's about to leave, I'm gonna tell him now, I have to before its too 
late, before he leaves with her" 
 
Monica stopped me for a second 
 
"Why was Mulder here?" 
 
"To say goodbye" 
 
She smiled at me but her eyes were sad 
 
"Its ok, I'm happy Monica. I know what I want now and I know what I need to do" 
 
My eyes caught his again 
 
"Well heres your chance Dana because he's coming over" 
 
Monica turned her chair as a familiar pair of hands took hold of Scullys arms. 
 
"Can we talk…outside?" 
 
Dana tried her hardest to hide the nervous glee. Everything was about to change. They 
stepped out on to the fire escape. It was dark out, She could barely see him, but what she 
saw was beautiful. She'd missed him so much already and went to hold him but he kept 
her at arms length. 
 
"I saw you with Mulder just now!" 
 
"I know, let me explain" 
 
"Don't! I already know" 
 
A wave of relief swept over her. But it soon turned to panic. If he knew, why did he seem 
unhappy? 
 
"Whatever is going on between Mulder an you, this 'relationship' cant be helping the 
matter" 
 
"But he doesn't know…" 
 
"And that's another thing! I'm sick of the secrets, the lies, the sneaking around. Its gone 
to far" 
 
"I know john that's what I need to tell you!" 
 
"So you agree we should end it" 
 
She froze. 
He wanted to end it? She thought for a moment.  
Dana had ended her relationship with Mulder in hope of starting again with John. It 
didn't occur to her for one moment that John would not want the same thing. At first she 
blamed Monica. For getting her hopes up? Or just being a good friend? But then she 
realised she had no one to blame but herself. How selfish she was to think John would 
change his life for her, after all she had put him through. 
It was too late now. She had lost him already and her heart was breaking. 
She couldn't stop a tear from falling 
 
John looked at her confused, yet somehow hopeful… 
"We agreed from the start didn't we Dana? No feelings…right? Why are you…." 
 
"Feelings? The only thing I'm feeling right now is embarrassment! The humiliation that 
you ended it first!" 
 
She wiped her eyes. He noticed that they suddenly looked cold and dead. 
 
"It's a shame really…" She folded her arms and smirked wickedly "You were a good 
fuck. But your just to much of a coward for me John Doggett. I should have found a real 
man to fool around with!" 
 
He grabbed her in anger 
 
"If you really mean every spiteful word, tell me now. It'll be one decent thing you've 
ever done for me through all of this. Put me outta my misery and then we can carry on 
our lives like it never happened, pretending we can stand each other for the sake of our 
work!" 
 
She hurt. Deeply. But over the years she had got real good at hiding things from men. Her 
eyes remained black and her face stayed stern but every next word that came out of her 
mouth broke her heart in two. 
 
"Your words mean nothing to me, as did you. Like I said. Nothing but a good fuck… 
 
…I'll See you at work" 
 
She yanked her arm from his grasp and ran back inside. The party was in full swing, 
laughing, smiling faces. She needed to get out of there before they saw her break. 
 
She grabbed her bag from the bar and tried to avoid Agent Reyes 
 
"How did it go? Dana? Are you ok? Dana!"  
 
Monica hurried after her as she made her way to the exit. 
 
"Ah there you are, I've been looking for you" 
Dana was stopped her at the door by Skinner 
 
"Dana, we need to talk, I want you to meet somebody" 
 
A stranger appeared at Skinners side, a federal looking man. 
 
"I'm sorry sir can it wait til morning I was just leaving" 
 
The stranger suddenly perked up, hesitant but persistant 
 
"I'm afraid this cannot wait til morning miss Scully. I have an urgent matter that aquires 
your attention immediately, if you agree of course" 
 
Her eyes pleaded with Skinners but he seemed determined to make her stay 
 
"Fine…what can I do for you?" 
 
The men smiled and escorted her away from the party. 
 
"My name is Ian Keller. I am the managing director of a new institution called 
MedForce. A training and teaching institution for…well, you can call it Doctors without 
boarders. Now I've been asking about you for some time and only recently been able to 
take the time to come and see you in person. Walter here has been telling me all about the 
work you have done for the FBI over the years and I must say I am truly impressed!" 
 
"Oh! Well…Ah, thankyou sir but I'm a little confused as to why you would be asking of 
me?" 
 
"You, my dear are a diamond in the ruff, one of a kind. Your experience and your 
expertise with the FBI and the academy, and your medical background out weighs any 
applicant that's come forth so far to help me and my business" 
 
"Well, Sir. Thankyou. And I appreciate you taking the time to speak to me but I'm not 
looking for a job. Unless theres something Skinner, your not telling me?" 
 
Skinner laughed 
 
"No Dana. Your position at the FBI is in no jeopardy but I beg you to hear him out. Hear 
the opportunity he has to offer you?" 
 
"I'm not offering you a Job Miss Scully. I'm offering you your new life." 
 
She looked at him confused and frustrated, but given the recent circumstances and 
skinners eager face, she continued to listen. 
 
"As you can see I'm no longer in my hay day. I have a lot of love for my work and I need 
someone I can trust to take over my work when I retire this year. I would like you to be 
that person. If you accept this offer you will run MedForce. You will run everything.Your 
decisions, your visions, MedForce will be run by you, it will be yours. I trust you to take 
MedForce to the next level" 
 
Skinner spoke next. 
 
"Dana I know this is huge but this is…an amazing opportunity. Think of the work you 
can do. The opportunities…the money" 
 
"Ah yes about the money miss Scully. Not an issue, name what you want, its yours."  
 
Dana stood shocked and silent. This was something a Doctor could only dream about 
being apart of, knowing she was being asked to not only be apart of it but to run it was 
huge. Indeed, life changing. 
 
Skinner saw her processing thoughts still and stook her to one side. 
 
"I know its a lot to take in. But hear me out. This…this is bigger than anything you could 
ever dream of Dana. You'll be doing something you love for all the right reasons. No 
more politics, no more answering to anybody. You could make this your life. You can be 
out there! Don't turn this down Dana" 
 
"Skinner? Its so huge! What about my life here, my family? My work? The x files?" 
 
"What life is here for you? I know about you and Mulder. Ive been holding Ian back 
because I knew you wouldn't leave him. When he called me last night, told me it was 
over, I knew you had to know this. Your family will still be here, the xfiles? Will be left 
in great hands with Doggett and Reyes, what better time to move onto something new, 
something different. Dana, you know If you aren't happy, if you want to come back your 
job here will always be waiting here." 
 
"Ah, sorry to interrupt miss Scully, Skinner. I must tell you quickly. The reason I had to 
intrude on this evening is because we start in England as soon as next week" 
 
"England!?" 
 
"Yes, My plane leaves 3 days from now with a spare seat. Your seat if you want it, if you 
are ready. This is an opportunity of a lifetime miss scully. 3 days. I cannot wait any 
longer I'm afraid and so…I await your answer" 
 
He walked back into the party with a hopeful smile. 
 
"England?" 
 
"London, Dana. You'll have your own apartment waiting, everything! Its so sudden I 
know but…you can always come back? 3 days. Think about it, Let us know." 
 
He went to join Ian and at the same moment Dana caught sight of Doggett and Emma 
leaving discreetly, hand in hand. 
 
"Wait! Skinner, Mr Keller" 
 
She ran to them both 
 
"Mr Keller, sir. I'll accept your offer. On one condition only" 
 
He took her hands in excitement 
 
"Anything, Miss Scully, you name it!" 
 
"On the condition that we can leave tomorrow" 
 
Monica watched, confused as Dana shook hands with Skinner and another gentleman she 
did not know. She saw there smiling and triumphant faces as Scully seemed to look on, 
nervous and sad. She too had seen Doggett leave. It wasn't right. Had they discussed their 
feelings? Why was he leaving with another woman and why did Scully look so lost. 
She needed to get to the bottom of this… 
 
…Before it was too late. 
 
 
TO BE CONTINUED…………….. 
 
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