"Without You"
Author: Jacquie Sabatier (colbysgurl@shaw.ca)

Summary: What if Doggett realized his heart belongs to Scully? 
Post episode for "Audrey Pauley" 
 
Pairing: DRP/DSR 
 
Rating: K+ for Chapter 1. Chapter 2 will probably be M. 


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Scully had just put water on for tea when she heard Doggett's knock on the door. 
 
Doggett's behavior puzzled Scully. However, she had known him long enough to 
remember if something was on his mind, it was better to let him talk about it on his own 
terms. 
 
"Can I get you anything?" 
 
"An understand ear would be good," Doggett found himself admitting to her. 
 
"Sure. Have a seat." Scully tried to disguise her surprise with a smile. Doggett sat down 
on the couch beside her while he attempted a weak some of his own. He ran a hand 
through his short grown hair. Scully's blue eyes stared back at him. It definitely wasn't 
helping the knots in his stomach, he thought.  
 
"I did see Monica," Doggett started again. His palms were sweating. "She…" he took a 
breath. "We seem to agree that the whole thing with Audrey Pauley made us re-evaluate. 
" 
 
"Re-evaluate what, Agent Doggett?" 
 
Doggett grinned sheepishly. "That sounded kind of dumb didn't it?" 
 
"Take your time." Her smile was warm this time. It gave him the courage to tell her what 
had been on his heart ever since he had been paired with her the previous year. 
 
"Do you believe in soul mates, Agent Scully?" He fixed his pale blue eyes on her face as 
the stereo changed to Daniel Bedfield's "If You're Not the One." 
 
"Sure. I guess." Puzzlement crept into Scully's voice again. 
 
"These last couple of days gave me a chance to do some thinking…about you and me 
mostly." 
 
"Oh?" Scully's heart was slamming in her ears. Hoping she wouldn't deck him, Doggett 
picked up one of her slender hands. 
 
"I thought about what could have happened if it was you." 
 
Scully gave his hand a small squeeze. "I'm fine, John." 
 
"Promise me," Doggett whispered. His entire body was shaking now. Growing alarmed, 
Scully put her arm around his shoulder. Doggett responded by tugging her lips to his. 
Scully momentarily froze but she soon found herself melting against Doggett. His tongue 
wanted entry into her mouth. She whimpered softly at the taste of him.  
 
Doggett pulled back, breathless, searching her face. He needed to know that he wasn't 
overstepping his bounds. Scully closed her eyes as she took in a quivering breath. She 
could feel Doggett's fingers stroking her face. 
 
"Dana?" Doggett whispered. 
 
Scully's response was to kiss him again, long and hard. Her fingers ran into his hair. 
Doggett ran his hands under the hem of her blouse, feeling a violent shiver run down his 
elbow at the contact with her creamy skin.They were both out of breath when the kiss 
finally broke.  
 
"Can... can I stay here tonight?" Doggett whispered. A pause as he admitted, "I don't 
want to be alone." 
 
Scully kissed his forehead. "You'll probably sleep better on the bed. I can make up the 
couch." 
 
"You're not sleeping on the couch." Doggett was adamant. 
 
"Neither are you." Scully was just as stubborn. 
 
The barest hint of a smile played on Doggett's lips. "So what're we gonna do about it?" 
 
"Share?" Scully's eyes glistened with unspoken need. 
 
Doggett took a breath, looking away. Nope, it wasn't his imagination. The glint was still 
there. Noting his hesitation Scully added, "I won't try anything." 
 
The grin was back. "You can try anything you want to, Dana. I won't complain." 
 
It was Scully's turn to not know what to say. Finally she said, "Come on. You look like 
you're about to fall over from exhaustion." 
 
Scully took Doggett's hand in hers and the two of them made their way to her bedroom. 
 
"Dana?" 
 
"Yeah?" 
 
The moment Scully turned around, Doggett caught her lips. He couldn't resist a satisfied 
smirk when she was breathless as a result. She closed her eyes for a moment before she 
walked over to her dresser to remove her cotton pyjamas. She went into the bathroom to 
change and brush her teeth. 
 
Doggett watched the door close before removing his t-shirt. He thought about removing 
his jeans, but decided against it. Instead he crawled under the covers to wait for Scully.


Everything around him was white. He realizes that he's in the hospital. A white door 
beckons to him to come...he can hear voices, no a doctor's voice telling the nurse to pull 
the plug.  
 
He breaks into a run when he hears the patient's name: Dana Scully.. "Time of death 3:47 
pm..." He pushes the doctor out of the way, but it's too late. He opens his mouth to 
scream her name. 
 
Doggett woke up in a cold sweat. When he first looked at Scully, he feared he was still 
gripped in his nightmare. But then she moved. Her bleary blue eyes looked up at him. 
 
"John?" she queried sleepily. 
 
Now Doggett was ashamed of himself. "Didn't mean to wake you." 
 
"It's okay." Her forehead creased when she got a good look at his perspiring forehead. 
"Nightmare?" 
 
"Yeah." Doggett admitted sheepishly. He was surprised when Scully wrapped her arms 
around him. She rested his head against her chest. 
 
"Relax," she whispered. 
 
Instead of relaxing, Doggett pushed up her pyjama top, alternating between kisses and 
nibbles. Scully whimpered as she lifted her arms over her head and writhed beneath him. 
Her top and then her bottoms were tossed onto the floor by the foot of the bed. He started 
to caress her stomach, following with his lips. 
 
Scully whimpered again, gripping the sheets until her knuckles turned white.Her moans 
and shivers drove Doggett on. He progressed down ward toward her centre, inserting one 
finger into her and starting to rub. Scully's moans turned to primal sounding half-growl 
half purr that made Doggett look up from what he was doing. It amazed him that a 
woman of Scully's size could make noises of pleasure like that. 
 
He shuddered as he continued, inserting a second finger into Scully and increasing the 
intensity of his attentions. His tongue darted in and out of her, causing Scully to scream 
out his name. 
 
"Let go, Dana…just let go," Doggett whispered. 
 
Scully cried out again and managed to get out, "So…so close…." 
Doggett growled deep down in his throat as he pushed her over the edge. Hearing her cry 
out, he continued to stroke her, needing to please her.She called out his name as she 
finally came against him, shivering and out of breath. Doggett gently held her to him, 
kissing her skin as he helped her to come down.Scully kissed Doggett's chest before 
whispering, "Your turn.." 
 
Half-amused and half puzzled, Doggett allowed Scully to turn them over so she was 
straddling him. Her hands expertly unzipped his jeans and pushed them down his legs as 
she trailed soft kisses down his shoulders and chest that made him shiver. "Dana….." 
 
She smiled against his skin as she stuck her hand in the waistband of his boxer shorts and 
stroked him while continuing soft sucking around his navel. Doggett pulled her up to his 
lips, groaning at the taste of her. Scully brushed his lips with hers before resuming her 
ministrations. She could feel that he was getting harder under her hands, so she pushed 
down his boxer shorts to free him. Doggett's hands went on hers, pushing impatiently at 
the constraining material. 
"Need you…please…" Doggett almost pleaded in a husky whisper. Scully kissed 
Doggett's neck as she lowered herself onto him. Not able to hold himself any longer, 
Doggett thrust into her.Scully arched her head back, crying out his name in pleasure. 
Doggett sucked on her breast as he pushed faster and deeper inside her. 
 
"I love you, "Scully whispered. 
 
Doggett closed his eyes as he heard those three little words that up until that moment, he 
had only heard in his dreams. 
He groaned between thrusts, "I love you too…" 
 
It seemed to end too soon for both of them. Doggett had his face buried in Scully's neck 
as he felt himself coming over the edge.  
Scully's ecstacy was shortlived when she realized that Doggett was sobbing as he spilled 
into her with a sob. She pressed kisses to his neck as she whispered, "Sssh....I've got you.. 
everything's alright. 
 
"Don't go," Doggett whispered. 
 
"I'm not going anywhere." Scully kissed Doggett's perspiring forehead.  
 
Doggett's eyes started to close as Scully stroked his hair despite his tight grip that 
remained around her. 
 
"It's alright, John," Scully continued to whisper. 
"Everything' s alright.." She continued caressing his face and his hair until she heard his 
breathing slow. It was only then that she followed him into sleep.